Wednesday, February 22, 2017

living a God sized dream.

Well, I just finished my first class of nursing school...successfully, I might add.

And almost every time I think about the tests I've passed or even the times I've studied and the material I've learned, I get a little teary-eyed cause I feel so blessed that God has allowed me to learn about nursing, and to one day become a nurse.

But it hasn't always been the tops of mountains. I guess we should start at the beginning.

When I lost my scholarship at my university. And then I had to move back home and was left with the thoughts of "what now?" I felt like God uprooted me from my path and I didn't know what to do.

What followed was many months of dark thoughts and a lot of listening to my own self doubt. I changed my mind and decided I was gonna do nursing instead, so started taking more courses at home so that I would be on that track. And everything seemed to be falling back into place.

And then rejection hit. Twice.

It's never an easy thing when a school says they don't want you and you just think you're not good enough for them...who's gonna want I ever gonna be a nurse...

All those lovely thoughts that come along with rejection.

But God continued to pick me up and look me square in the face and reminded me that He knew what He was doing...not the other way around.

I got a job working at a hospital in the Charleston area and realized that I was indeed in the right field. and guess what...God wasn't wrong about moving me back home or about calling me into nursing. He was right...yet again.

And then in His timing, I was accepted into a different nursing school and got to experience a season of just working and being at home and planting roots and it was such a good season.

Then January hit and so did the anxiety. I had waited so long to get into nursing school and worked so hard to get in that I felt like I was at the accumulation of so much work and the thoughts of "don't blow it" kept running through my head on a loop.

The weeks that I had looked forward to for almost 2 years were being crippled by anxiety.

But I got help and you know, God never forgot about me and here we are today. Lots of prayer, hard work, the best family and friends a girl could ask for..always supporting me and encouraging me through some difficult weeks.

He is allowing me to live a God sized dream and I just can't help but be so grateful to the One who allows me to be where I am.

Thank you to everyone who encouraged me and reminded me of God's promises and prayed for me. I love you all so much and covet more prayers throughout the rest of nursing school :)

Love, Charlie, future RN

This is about how I'm feeling about finishing my first class. Let's go to Disney.

Tuesday, May 31, 2016

the best outfit for Disney World.

While planning our trip to Disney, I was super excited to plan out my outfits for each day at the park. I knew I wanted clothes that would breathe easily, that were Disney themed, but would also be items that I would wear outside of Disney.

When I found Jordandene a few years ago, I knew I had to have one of their shirts for my next Disney trip.

I picked the "Supercalifragilistic" shirt from Jordandene and knew it would quickly become my favorite outfit for the trip.

What can I say about this shirt? It was perfect.

You know the parks are hot. This shirt breathed so well and was so lightweight.
On this day in particular, we did all 4 parks in one day. I couldn't have picked a better outfit for walking all those 13 miles.

At one point in particular, we rode the Kali River Rapids, and we all got soaked. I mean, super soaked. But, this shirt dried so quickly and was still so light after being weighed down by all the water.

All in all, this shirt is too good for words. They have so many fun options to choose from and I can't wait to get some more to add to my collection. Be sure to hop over and take a look at what they have to offer. 

And if you're ever headed to Disney, you definitely need this in your suitcase.

Shirt c/o Jordandene in exchange for an honest review. As per usual, all opinions are my own and in truly Charlie fashion, honest beyond belief.

Thursday, March 3, 2016

breaking the silence.

It's been a very long time since I wrote anything on this space. But today, I'm ready to break the silence.

Last fall, I moved home permanently after being away at school for two years. At the time, I was devastated, but also thankful that I would get to spend more time with my family. I was sad at losing my friends and losing my community that I had grown so fond of. But I was so hopeful that the Lord would provide me with a new community of believers here at home.

But nobody told me it would be this hard. Putting myself back out there and trying to make new friends. This season I'm in is so awkward. I'm college aged...but not exactly in college. I'm not married and don't have kids, but it seems that everyone in this town is.

Needless to say, nobody prepared me for how difficult it would be to make new friends and a new community. It's like freshman year all over again, except you're the only freshman.

After reading over this, I feel like I'm just complaining. But this is just me putting my flag in the ground and saying, "this is where I am."

I'm struggling and relying on the Lord and believing that the good is only to come. I know He will provide for me, in His time.

I will always have the chance to look at the good or bad in every situation. I can dwell on my season of loneliness, or I can give thanks that I get to spend these days with my family, that I get to live on a freakin' island, that its 70 degrees in winter.

He is still good, always.

Sorry this post was so botchy. Just my thoughts and ramblings..but I guess that's what this space is for, anyways.