Thursday, July 11, 2013

Last Full day in Chenzhou

When we went into the orphanage today, Jack was crying in his crib. I picked him up and he stopped just like that. He is so easy to please. When Shannon saw that he had been crying she said something along the lines of, "Are you sad that your friend is leaving?" This made me so sad :( The thought of leaving him is about to rip my heart out.

I played with Jack, Marcus, and Sue today in the baby room. Sue was hooked up to an IV earlier this week, so I was happy to see he wasn't anymore. He was so happy to have someone pick him up out of the chair. He is so easy to please too. He never wants to get out of my lap. He is a cuddlier and just looks at my necklace and we rock back and forth.

We played with the big kids and I grabbed Sky to take her downstairs. She seriously gets so excited to leave that room. We brought paper strips and glue to make those chains with the paper, but most of them couldn't get it. Taylor got it right away. He is so smart. We took some silly pictures..I love him.

Julia and I had a little adventure going below the housing for the elderly to get a shoe. There are rats--BIG rats--all around the orphanage and we see them all the time. We were so afraid to have one pop out and run by our feet. Luckily, we survived and got the shoe!

We had those foam things you put in water that grow into shapes and the kids enjoyed that. I'm not sure if they enjoyed the water more or the foam shapes. Those kids are so thirsty.

As we were getting ready to leave, I noticed Sydney in the corner of a dark bathroom crying. I went over to her just to be a shoulder to cry on and a hand to hold. She does not talk, but she is the sweetest soul ever. I think she was abused at some time in her life. She is so afraid of everything and she seems to be mentally tormented inside. Annie and I tried to cheer her up and comfort her, but it was time to leave.

This is what is hard about leaving. Who is going to comfort the kids when we leave? Who will be there to hold them and cuddle them when they cry? Who is there for them when we are not? I pray that we can show them how much Jesus loves them, so that when we leave, He will be there to comfort them and hold and cuddle them.

We went to a bead store after the orphanage, then ice cream, and then some lunch! Yum!

We went back to the orphanage, and Jack was crying again :( I don't know why. I hope is feeling okay. We played and I decided I would go to the big kids, but he started crying every time I put him down.

I finally slipped away and sat with Ray for awhile. I got him to laugh which is not the easiest. He is happy all the time, but not really a laugher.

We had cookies and icing and we had that for a snack for the kids. Then, the school kids came in and chaos erupted. I saw Colin and I saw him scan the room looking for me. When he saw me, he ran right up to me to give me a hug.

I saw Charlie and that was so surreal. I don't know what it is, but he is just so big. I remember him from four years ago and now he is a teenager!

We went downstairs for dinner and the big kids joined us. It was a super special time. The director toasted us and was tearing up while doing it.

Dinner was really good and when we were done, Colin came up and sat with me. I kept feeding him watermelon, which wasn't good for him apparently. Whoops.

We all got up to take a picture with the chef and then we started to take pictures with all the nannies.

As I was watching the nannies with some girls talking and interacting, I couldn't help but cry and think of this time with them coming to a close.

It was hard for me tonight. I don't know when I'll be back, so I asked Steve to help me talk to Joy and Liz. I told them that I wouldn't be coming back anytime soon and that they would always have a place in my heart. Cue the tears. It was so hard for me to even talk.

I was a mess. I know I will see them tomorrow, but I just wanted to let them know this will be my last time seeing them for awhile and that I love them so much.

We all ended up in a big circle and didn't know what to do after Annie danced with Taylor and Leah. So…Makenna suggested we do the Hokie Pokie and of course we did.

Picture it in your head. The 12 of us. Steve. The nannies. The director. And Mr. Ren all doing the hokie pokie with Taylor, Leah, Daisy, and Colin. It was funny. After that we called it a night.

Colin and I walked out together. The other kids started to head upstairs and Joy told Colin that he needed to go to. He was glued to me. Whatever side of me Joy was on, Colin was on the other so he could avoid her.

He would not let go. So much to the point that I had to push him away and turn my back. It was so hard.

On that note, I will say my last goodbyes tomorrow at the party and then we will take an 8 hour train ride to Beijing.

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